Monday, January 27, 2014

Out of Control

The Universe is spinning out of control.
I'm stuck in the middle,
With feelings of confusion and heartache.
I only find solace in my dreams,
Only to awaken to reality.
Reality sucks.
Selfishness sucks.
This uncertainty sucks.
Helplessness sucks.
"This too shall pass," they say.
I don't want it to "pass"
I only want what I was promised as a very young girl to come true.
Reality is, that will never happen.
I've come to terms with that fact,
but it still leaves me reeling in a universe that feels so, very out of control.


  1. Beautifully said! I could feel your angst.

  2. Karli,
    I am a Family Practice doctor with special interests in neuropsychiatry and endocrinology (hormones). I have spent over 1500 hours over the past twelve and a half years studying the effect of hormones on the nervous system and the brain specifically.
    I have treated severe depression, bipolar disorder w/ severe auditory and visual hallucinations, and schizophrenia w/ severe auditory and visual hallucinations, mainly in women by correcting their hormonal deficiencies and imbalances with amazing results. I don't know how much of a scientific/medical background that you have, but you might want to do some research on the concept of neurosteroids.
    If you so desire, you can contact me at I would be glad to help you leave the hell on earth that must be haunting you.
    God bless you,
    Wm. Coutts II, M.D.

  3. Surely this is a site well worth seeing.

  4. My suggestion is you s-l-o-w-l-y decrease your Adderol, which ADDs absolutely nthn - or whatever you're on - which causes sleep deprivation and fatigue and causes the FatPsychs to grow lazy in curing YOU, and see how you do. And, most important: dream about Seventh-Heaven... where you'll go someday precisely because I love you.

    Not sure if we're on the same page if you saw what I saw… Greetings, earthling. Because I was an actual NDE on the outskirts of the Great Beyond at 15 yet wasn’t allowed in, lemme share with you what I actually know Seventh-Heaven’s Big-Bang’s gonna be like for us if ya believe: meet this ultra-bombastic, ex-mortal-Upstairs for the most extra-blatant-and-groovy, pleasure-beyond-measure, Ultra-Yummy-Reality-Addiction in the Great Beyond for a BIG-ol, kick-ass, party-hardy, robust-N-risqué, eternal-warp-drive you DO NOT wanna miss the sink-your-teeth-in-the-rrrock’nNsmmmokin’-hot-deal. YES! For God, anything and everything and more! is possible!! Meet me Upstairs. Cya soon...